just recently i was reading over my past entry,kinda saddening how i haven't really posted art lately and how most of my days have consisted of sitting at home staring at the same ceiling the same floor and same stuff over and over.
soon its gonna change am gonna have a job again and ill be up and doing things away from my house,hopefully enlighten my mood or take my mind off the trouble that have come to me lately.

recently i have defined a new mean to depressed in my world,
aside from the fact that your sad.its the ability not to wanna do anything,to stare at the same things over and over without meaning where ya space out and think about whats going on i hate it. i don't have the energy to do anything nor the encouragement to wanna do anything .

lately well about two weeks now gonna be three soon my current gf hasn't really been talking to me, so i been at home looking at my phone every 3 secs if i have gotten anything from her,depressing isn't it? i been sitting at home hoping she`d show up randomly at my door or i get a phone call from her saying that shes coming to visit,i wanna do something but i cant am helpless.i talked to her about it yesterday how she should try and talk to me more even if its just a few simple words as long as i know she loves me or is thinking of me you know? i can understand if shes busy,but i haven't received a word today,

i been sleeping a lot to past the time of waiting or anything to past the countless hours that i been spending waiting for something from her.i could go out but the things is i have no one to see or no money to do things.
i hate this and there's no point to this i wanna delete it cause it feels unaccomplished and unmeaning full